Proem

I am what I am, a subject of forces beyond my control, mantras reverberating- 'god grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot control'-suffocating my emotions (expressing them in public is a sign of weakness) so I can establish myself as a useful member of society even though society does not seem to have a place for me.  Resources in this society are mostly controlled by pecksniffian gladhanders, disbursing biased favours, preferring lickspittles to impugners, hobnobbing camp followers to neglected foot soldiers. The modern grail of career progression ensures that those who enjoy satisfying front line roles cannot comply with their managers requirements so that that manager is failing according to their manager ad infinitum. Human resource departments assure their position (= salary) by ensuring successful job applicants have specific career progression objectives, somebody revealing that they want to stay on the front line is nearly always rejected.  The previous observation précis' that of a senior manager in a multi national company who also has experience of 3rd sector organisations and national agencies, effectively to 'get a job' one must lie, even on the application. Maybe I'm just too honest but that is wrong.